Details of heartbreaking notes left for Jim Carrey by his ex-girlfriend before she took her own life have emerged, as a coroner ruled her death was suicide.
The body of Irish make-up artist Cathriona White, 30, was discovered at her home in Los Angeles in September.
A report by the Los Angeles county coroner’s office found she died after taking a lethal cocktail of prescription drugs.
Ms White and Carrey had broken up a week before her death and she left two notes for the Hollywood star in which she said she was “just not for this world”, the report stated.
“I’ve spent 3 days now in disbelief that you’re not here,” she wrote. “I can go on broken-hearted and try to put the pieces back. I could, I just don’t have the will this time.
‘I’m sorry you felt I wasn’t there for you. I tried to give you my best part.”
Ms White signed off the note, which was found in a sealed envelope, with the word “Dewdrop”, the report said.
A second note, also written to “Jim”, asked for “his people” to sell her belongings and give the money to her family.
“‘I don’t really know about burial or that sort of thing. You are my family so whatever you choose will be fine,” she wrote.
“Please forgive me. I’m just not for this world.”
Ms White was discovered by two of her friends and Carrey’s personal assistant Nicole Montez on September 28 after they went to her home to check on her.
According to the report, Carrey had sent a text message to Ms White a day before her body was found asking where his painkillers had gone from under his sink.
It is understood Carrey was referring to the prescription drugs Ambien, Percocet and Propranolol , made out to the name “Arthur King”, which were found at Ms White’s home, the report said.
Ms White’s cause of death was given as “multiple drug effects” after a toxicology report discovered propranolol, zolpidem, oxycodone and oxymorphone in her system.
The last activity on Ms White’s phone was a three-minute FaceTime call with Carrey four days before she was found, the coroner said.
Her friend Dennis Bradshaw told investigators she was “happy and upbeat” but would get “really down” and her friends would not hear from her for a while.
Ms White told Mr Bradshaw she was missing her family in Ireland and she was “madly in love with Jim” but their relationship was a “rollercoaster”, he said.
“She tied her identity to him and if she felt he (Jim) was slipping away, she would become depressed,” the report said.
Carrey was “reclusive” due to his celebrity status and Ms White would often stay at his home, Mr Bradshaw told investigators.
Another friend, Jenny Burpee, said Carrey had first “unexpectedly” broken up with Ms White in 2013 and she had “not eaten or slept for a year afterwards”. Ms Burpee said she believed Ms White had previously taken an overdose of pills around two years earlier.
Carrey carried the coffin at Ms White’s funeral in the village of Cappawhite, Co Tipperary, in October as she was laid to rest beside her late father. The actor described Ms White’s death as like being “hit with a lightning bolt”.
Ms White had moved to Los Angeles in 2009 and took roles as an extra on television before working behind the scenes.
The report states that Mark Burton confirmed he and Ms White were legally married at the time of her death.